I have several fears.
Silly ones are clowns, snakes, spiders, you get the drift. However, my real fears (the ones that keep me awake at night) are more complex. I am terrified of aging and death. So much so that I force myself to not think about the future. I’m scared of not being a good wife to someone one day, or a good mother to my future kids. I am scared that the way I see my future in my head, will never become a reality. I’m terrified of being alone.
Just recently, I had an assignment in one of my classes where I had to interview someone over sixty-five. I had always been curious about the perspective of life from someone older than me and I have always wanted to do something like this. Pick the brain of someone who has lived countless years more than me and has learned and experienced more than I have. I went into the assignment thinking that it would be fun. I wasn’t prepared for the reality check that life was so fleeting.
Something feels different lately, like I am starting to fall into myself. I feel like I learn something new about me every single day and I am in love with that. I’m in love with discovering who I am daily.
A lot has been going on lately. I made new friends. I lost some friends. I found new things I love. I found new things I hate. Since my birthday, everything has been eventful. It’s almost as if since I turned twenty-one everything has been falling into place in my life. I feel like for once everything is the way it is supposed to be and I have never been happier.
I hope things are going well for you,
A/N: Regular posting will begin as usual very soon. I am working on a lot of new content to bring to my blog and I am hoping that everyone likes it. Stay tuned!
As most of you know my blog has been under construction. This is mainly due to me upgrading it and making it better than before. As I have posted several times before my blog is my child and means the entire world to me. It is my favorite hobby and the place I come when I need to vent or express my thoughts or feelings. There is nothing I love more than getting to sit down and devote my time to this.
All of that being said it is important to note that my blog will be perfect before I resume posting about anything. However, this is just to update you guys that posting will resume very soon!
I hope you guys can stay patient a little longer, it will be worth it! I promise!